Ok so I am human even though it seems I have never fell off like this before. I have not been blogging or eating right for 2 weeks. I started my good streak on monday we will see if that helps weight loss wise come sat. I seriously think I have gained about 5+ lbs from gorging for 2 weeks ugh. Disgusted in myself. Oh well I am ready for any gain and ready to get it back off asap I am too close to goal. Way to close.
On the other hand I have noticed how when ppl lose weight they love how their body is looking well not me I am losing everything it seems but my nasty belly its annoying. I know I have lost the most from there but its least noticed. GRRRR!!! I need to get money fast so I can get a new wardrobe to sexy myself up. I feel unattractive specially to my bf :( Hes probably looking elsewhere now but I can not blame him if he is. I dont like the new me why would he? This is a little bit on the depressing side so lets move on. lol.
I am trying to have a new approach and outlook in life we will see how it goes. I am trying the I dont care type lol Like live life to the fullest dont let things bother me and if it is something that is bound to do not dwell on it. Hopefully this will make me happier. Another thing is smile more. I found this to be hard sometimes but when you sit back and think of something you are grateful for it gets easy real fast. I am sure everyone has atleast one thing they are grateful for right?
So this is all for now sorry so short but I will update soon. I dont want to depress you guys I am in a confused feeling day as I try to switch my outlook and with everything thats been going on. I will get past this in a few hours so dont worry about me. Songs for today Lynyrd skynyrd Freebird and 311 lovesong(also remade recently by adele). Hope all is well ttyl, and have a good day!